what I really want!!!

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If all I do 
Is watch the night sky 
In my jammie 
Taking in damp air 
sitting on the terrace
Living the moment
I"ll be fine without you.

If all I do 
Is going on a drive 
Outside the town
& watch the drop of water over the mirror of our car
I"ll be smiling through drizzle rainy days.

If all I do 
Is sipping my favorite hazelnut coffee
In my favorite coffee house 
& scribbling eternity of words 
On the beloved sitting corner.

If all I do 
Is sit alone
write about things I miss most 
& have my favorite snacks
I"ll be at peace without complaining about anything.

If all I do 
Is just spend my weekend
With lying close to someone 
& talk about the issue I'm facing 
& someone solving my dilemmas
I"ll be loving him a lot 
More than I ought to.

If all I do 
Is not spend my time overthinking 
& making my own assumptions
I"ll not write this intense & harsh reality of mine.

If all I do 
Is do what I want for so long 
I'll be a little less miserable 
& maybe not sound like poetic.

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