I just don't want to be your another random date!!

Those beautiful memories were so painful to forget,

I was hurting & dying in pain,

But the pain couldn't go away,

Yet somehow I managed to forget those beautiful moments with you.

Memories, time & your face

I forget everything about us

But when we met some days ago

You bring back me down to memory lane.

A life without pain, 

a life with you,

Chasing sunset in the car with you 

Genuine kiss followed by silly talks

Things we did when we were dating.

The day I met you you told me 

That's it's your mistake you had done wrong,

you're sorry for it, 

& you want another shot.

But somewhere I with my

Tired eyes, hopeful heart, frail bones & stubborn eyes 

Told you 'no I am over with that phase'.

Still, you read my eyes 

Told me what I want 

You were so close &

Yet so far away.

You try to convince me to shield our love & betrayal our lust for others.

 you know I still feel for you

But somewhere I am afraid of the same thing that happened before.

Maybe I am afraid that you'll lie again & try to hurt me again.

Or maybe I am scared that you'll leave me again without any reason,

Because we never know.

So long & beyond I wish if there's another chance to get back together,

To live again 90's love life in this 21st century.

Because I know in this fling century 

I can't find anyone just like my sanity.

There's a lot I like to do with you 

But yeah I don't want to be your another random date 

Where you just spent some needy time with her.

I'd like to keep you by my side, share everything, each & every moment without worrying about tomorrow.

I'd like to keep your smiles

& erase every vicious moment or memory of us!!