coping up with myself

All my life 

I have been trying to walk on straight lines

Because my mama told me from my tot till today,

To measure what comes out of my mouth. 

Living in the 21st century 

& being blunt & honest women,

Is entirely indigestion to fogy-prone people.

Extra miles and meters of spilled truth from my mouth

Could ruin my image of being a decent woman.

Being raised in an Orthodox family 

They grasp me zillions of time

Tattooed me unknowingly,

To tie my tongue with the words of decency, 

& seal my lips with morality stamps 

& hide my opinion in my back pocket 

Whether it's right or wrong.

Mostly I was advised to

Sit back and listen to all the old age buzzes,

I was never advised to

Lay my opinions out of the box,

Unrestricted.

Because of this 

I never learned when and how 

To raise the right question or sentiments 

 & now I became more like a less talkative girl in this 21st century,

Who is longing to be heard

Without any judgments 

Or without any fears.

& now I am the lady 

Who is paving the way for herself 

To speak what comes her in my mind

To be heard without any judgments and fear.

So as of today 

I decided not just to behave 

I will behave in an insane manner

I will spark slay & spread my ways.

I will lead the light, lead my days

Create my own ways.

From today 

I will be vulnerable & volatile

Express and address things in my manner, 

I will learn & share my experience

Get inspired & spread the enthusiasm.

Now I am in the competition with myself

My goal is to be simply better 

Then what I am toda

y!!!